My oh my

There are times it feels like so many people struggle with things in their life. Here is where I am at the moment. I have struggled many different times. I have learned that each time I struggle God is sending another miracle my way. He is providing a way. I am reminded today of the song that tells me there is no mountain that he cannot move. I know this is true. I am reminded of someone that I have thought about often but never in the way that I thought I would fall for him. He was someone I could talk to someone who knew me inside and out. Now that we are older it is funny how things change and how many times I have wondered does he love me? I know that I could fall in love with him, and that used to scare me. It doesn't anymore because I have a peace about whatever happens is meant to be. I mean think about it do we really know who we'll end up with when we are 13? I mean we think we will be with someone forever, and than in an instant things change. In one moment we are laughing about the times when we were younger and the next I hear him say man I love you. I know that he meant it because his voice was so passionate. More passionate than I have ever heard him say. He said don't you get it you are all I need. I never thought I would fall for him, but fallen for him I have. I cannot tell my best friends because they would not understand and I cannot tell anyone because it would just not make sense.

Life as a Teacher

Well I have done it. I am teaching and although it's hard I am thankful for the gift that the Lord has given me. He has given me the things that I have asked for and I know that he will continue to guide and direct me. My mom and I had a good talk today and it was nice, because she told me that she has seen that I have grown. It is hard because I do not feel like it sometimes. The bible tells me to be content in the state of mind that I am in. I do believe that I am for the most part. It is hard because I see my friends getting married and I often find myself wondering Lord am I next. I have a mass number of kids and I know that I am the example to them everyday and I couldn't ask God for anything else. Except that one thing that every girl desires. I am ready to have a companion someone to walk by my side. I am ready to call someone my husband and come home to him every night. I am ready to walk through the doors and know that my companion will follow shortly after. I am ready to have dinner started when he walks through the door, or already prepared just waiting for him to come home.