The Lord is incredible!

Today I have been doing a lot of praying and fasting and I realized I was looking for all the wrong things when it came to you. I always thought that you were the only one for me, the way I felt had to be real because you made my heart jump and skip a beat every time you looked at me.

After seeking for months I heard the lord say he was preparing someone else for me. I thought it was you, but the lord told me his name starts with a N. I know he is out there and will come to me soon.

There were many times that I thought it could be you. I waited for months for you and where did that get me? No where you can see. No I didn't mind, but I was lost and lonely inside. Lost and lonely for the moment you and I would share. Lost inside for you to comfort me in my despair.

There are times I think maybe you are the one for me than you go and hurt me. Did you feel anything or was it all just a dream? Did you ever love me or was it just make believe?

So many feelings and so scared

Today has been a rough day. I have been through a lot today and I thought I knew what the lord wanted me to do. It all started out great, but the lord must have known right? I mean how can a good day turn sour in just one hour?

I feel like the whole world is closing in around me, and there is nothing anyone can do to cheer me up. Many times I have wondered how he possibly could love someone else over me, but the truth is clear to see. It means that I have to find someone new. He is in love and he tells me he finally got it right. He finally understands what true love is all about.

Once upon a time I was his dream I was the one that he wanted for the rest of his life. I am happy for them though.