School, School, and more school

Well its official I never received the second A that I was hopping for. When you have so many other things on your mind it is easy to overlook little things like one assignment. That is right I overlooked an assignment. Here I thought I had everything done and I was so proud of myself than three days later I realized that I overlooked an important assignment that was due. This one assignment prevented me from getting my A.

I guess this experience has taught me that school should not be the most important thing in my life when there are other things that I should think about. I mean it is is more important to me that my dad is doing better and he is more important than some grade that I can ever receive. His life is what matters to me, and after a scare like that it is only logical that my mind is somewhere else when he was so sick I was scared that I could loose him.

God was really good to me over Christmas and he spared my life as well. I ran a high fever myself for two days straight and was in so much pain that I wasn't sure I could go on. I got this horrible cold after that and every time I coughed my chest hurt and my head killed me. It took a lot of resting and not going anywhere on my part to get better which everyone knows is the hardest thing for me to do. I have a hard time staying home when I know that stuff needs to be done.

Its okay for me to think of other things besides school and its okay for me to remember that everything happens for a reason.

So much to do so little time

Ever wonder how to keep things straight? I have two classes right now and I find myself confusing the two. Last week I actually submitted something to my child psychology class that was supposed to go to my technology class. The teacher just laughed and said that I sent the wrong thing and to please submit the right one. I have a hard time working on two different classes that are taught online because I have only taken one class online at a time up to this point.



I mean I did graduate from the University of Arizona with a degree in English after all. So why is it so hard to try to concentrate on two online classes when I was taking four at the U of A? Maybe just maybe it was I had more free time on my hands than I do now or maybe I didn't have as much to think about. In any matter I will keep the A's that I currently have and will make myself proud to say that I worked extra hard to accomplish that dream that I have been reaching for what seems like forever. Until the time I finish I will forever be gracious to my parents, family, and friends who have put up with me through all the ups and downs in my life.

I feel so blessed

God is truly amazing. I feel so blessed to have the friends that I do and the people he has placed in my life. Everything I have gone through has gotten me that much closer to him. I am closer to spending the rest of my life with the one he is preparing for me. I found out today that even though I feel I am doing what God wants me to it is still hard sometimes to not have that person to walk by my side. I know he is out there and I know I will find him when the timing is right, but so many times its hard for me to put all the things that have happened aside.

School is keeping me busy and I keep my mind on that but I still find myself wondering about who he is preparing for me. Is it the one who I want it to be? Is it the one who my mom has seen for me? Visions are of god if they are meant to be and I want it to be right. With all my hopes and dreams it'll be worth the effort and time I have put in and I know that the lord will provide.

College Life

Even wonder why its so hard to sit and wait for money to come when you know that you have books to buy or programs to buy so you can do homework. I have been in classes for a week and U hate the process of what they now call snail mail. It really does take forever. Who would have ever thought that it would be quicker to send emails and become part of that generation. Now we can do everything online. I remember when everything came through the mail...

Now we even have a lot of classes online what happened to going and sitting in a classroom and listening to the professor talk and students taking notes and making their hands hurt from all the writing. Oh well I guess that is life now.

You Are More - Tenth Avenue North - w/lyrics

I came across this video and I love it now.

Life

So much has happened that I am thankful for. I received a call today from someone and didn't get the call. It was the kind of person that I am not sure I want to talk to but I know that eventually I have to talk to the person. My mom has gone to visit my new niece and I love that she got to go.

For the past week I have had the feeling that the man I am going to end up with is going to be at camp this year and I cannot be there. I know that I will meet him soon but it doesn't help the way I have been feeling. My best friend and I have not been getting along that well and it doesn't help that he is in love with someone else. Our entire lives we thought we would be together than he went and fell in love with another close friend of mine. I am happy for them but I am ready to start a family and I don't care about his past, but I know deep in my heart that him and I are not meant to be. I just never pictured it would be this person. Anyone else I would be able to handle but seeing her all the time with him has been really hard on me.

I love this girl like a sister but it is still hard for me to see him hold someone else and want to be with someone else. He says that he is going to find me the perfect guy and that the four of us will be the best of friends and I pray everyday that he is right. I want my companion to understand the friendship that I have with him and not think that I will go to him over my companion. I know that the perfect guy is out there and I am trusting God that it'll happen when its all meant to happen.

In the Past few months

Hello everyone I know that I do not write on here that often but so much has happened since I last wrote. I am still looking for the perfect job. I know it is out there its just a matter of finding it. I have had two interviews this week alone and I think that is a step in the right direction. It came to my attention today that I will not receive money from the school until I finish 12 credit hours but how do they expect me to pay for these courses if I cannot give them the money for it. I figured it would be better to transfer schools because of everything I have been through with this school.

As of August I will be attending NAU because I like the way they set things up better. They run things a lot like what I am used to and receiving money will be better. It will no longer be an issue. School is cray anyways might as well add to it. The school I previously had strange times they gave money. I believe God does all things for a purpose and I believe that the reason he showed me this was for the better.

I know the job is out there for me and I know the right one will come along. School will be starting in August again and I will be going to the campus twice a week for five hours a night so I know things will be good. God is mighty and he can do amazing things. Please pray for me that I will continue to make the right choices without God I am nothing!

Life

Okay I know that I do not write on this that often but life seems to get in the way. Life has been going good things are starting to turn around for me. I know that sometimes I have a hard time trusting in God but things happen for a reason. Everything seems to be turning around and I believe that God works in mysterious ways. He is starting to make things happen for me. Life hasn't always been easy for me but I know that it will not be the end.

God has been working with me in a way that he has not been working in a long time. I lost my job in November and have only been subbing since than. The down side to this is subbing is not always the best thing to do because there are not always jobs that are available when I look online or call the sub-finder. I believe that I will have a job soon and maybe just maybe I will have to step out of my comfort zone for a while and look into other things.

When I was working at the daycare that I worked at I enjoyed it but realized that this age was not the age that I wanted to work for. I know that God is in control and I know that all things happen for a reason so it is just a matter of trusting and believing in him.