So much has happened that I am thankful for. I received a call today from someone and didn't get the call. It was the kind of person that I am not sure I want to talk to but I know that eventually I have to talk to the person. My mom has gone to visit my new niece and I love that she got to go.
For the past week I have had the feeling that the man I am going to end up with is going to be at camp this year and I cannot be there. I know that I will meet him soon but it doesn't help the way I have been feeling. My best friend and I have not been getting along that well and it doesn't help that he is in love with someone else. Our entire lives we thought we would be together than he went and fell in love with another close friend of mine. I am happy for them but I am ready to start a family and I don't care about his past, but I know deep in my heart that him and I are not meant to be. I just never pictured it would be this person. Anyone else I would be able to handle but seeing her all the time with him has been really hard on me.
I love this girl like a sister but it is still hard for me to see him hold someone else and want to be with someone else. He says that he is going to find me the perfect guy and that the four of us will be the best of friends and I pray everyday that he is right. I want my companion to understand the friendship that I have with him and not think that I will go to him over my companion. I know that the perfect guy is out there and I am trusting God that it'll happen when its all meant to happen.
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