Prayers

There are times when I feel like I need to pray harder than any other time. This is one of those times. I remember a time down on my knees when I was a child the picture still burned in my mind.

My parents taught me to pray without ceasing, and they taught me to seek the kingdom of heaven first. Recently it has occurred to me that maybe I am doing just the opposite.

Almost every time I start to think possibly my companion is just around the corner God tells me no. He is so adamant on telling me no that I think God will I ever meet the one I am supposed to sped the rest of my life with?

It seems like everyone around me is starting to have the type of life that I want. It seems like they are all happy and I would give it all up if I could. I would stop all the stuff the lord has put me through to be with the one that I am going to spend the rest of my life with.

It seems like just yesterday you promised me all these things. I have dreamed about what my life would behold and and I have dreamed about my companion. I know that he is out there and you the lord will continue to guide me because I really do believe he has great things for me.