My Amazing Best Friend!

For those of you who do not Know I have the most incredible best friend. She is always there for me no matter what I go through. She has been there for me for the past seven years without questioning me.

Let me start by saying this. It all started when I invited her to Colorado with me that Spring seven years ago for a week. I never thought she would want to go, I mean I only invited her because I wanted someone to go with me for the company. I still remember that first trip like it was yesterday. But the real fun began a year later when we traveled a lot more.

Here is a preview of all the fun times from that spring/summer!



This was the first trip than it began I mean really began! That summer we traveled to Camp in Idaho! What a fun time we had there and man did she meet a ton of people!



Then there was the spring break trip we had. I loved traveling to Missouri with her to see my sister and my nieces and nephews! Than that summer was when our adventure really started!

We moved to Oklahoma and have some fun times while we were there. This included her coming into the wonder faith. This whole time we were getting closer and closer! Finally we got to the point where I tell her everything and she tells me everything. We have had many adventures together and I love traveling with her. The most recent adventure we had together was her dad's wedding. Here is where I realized that she really is my BFF!


I LOVE YOU MARY! THANKS FOR ALWAYS BEING MY FRIEND!

Redefining my life

Things here have been busy and crazy. I have suddenly realized that the job I have is exactly the job god wants me to have at this point in my life. While at work today I noticed that there is an opening at Flowing Wells Junior High and I know that the lord will show me what I am supposed to do. It amazes me how much I sit back lately and think about all the good things that the lord have given me.

I realize that I am rich in the lord, and I think at this moment I don't need anything else. I am determined to redefine my life in a good way. I am going to give myself a makeover and make sure that I do not stress out over things that are out of my control. God is truly amazing. He has given me amazing friends and incredible parents that always stand beside me.

That is right mom and dad I love you both so much. Thank you for all the times you allowed me to stay up late studying and for all those times that I came in late and became grounded. I never thought at the time I was being punished that I would be thankful for it later in my life. Being on my own again I sometimes miss you asking when I am going to be home. I love you both so much!!!!

Today

Today I sit here and wonder why I feel the way I do. Does it matter that I have feelings for you? So much has happened since that blissful night and I wonder will I ever fully let go. It seems like just yesterday that we had that talk. It seems like just yesterday when you told me you love me.

So close yet so far away. I seem to be happier when I think of you. I seem to know better and do better if I fight. It matters to me that I care for you, and it matters to me that for some reason I still love you.

Look at me and tell me what do you see? Do you really see forever or are you just playing me? Do you believe that we could be forever or is it all just a game? Our hearts joined together I pray everyday that you are the one. No more hurt and no more pain. I will wait for you. Or I will wait for the right one to come and the lord will help me get over you.

Perfectisim

Ever notice how I stress out over my grades and I still receive good ones in the end? For those of you that know me, you know this is how I operate. I cannot get through school without stressing over my grades. It is how I keep my ideas and lesson plans straight.

How do I manage to always convince myself that I am doing bad? I will tell you how, I make sure that everything is done at the right time, but I don't make sure it is perfect. Being a perfectionist has always been my down fall. It makes me stress over every little detail and it stresses me out to the point that I think I could do better.

The reward is I know that I am always trying my hardest and I know that in the end, all things will work out because the lord promised me that.