I have met him

I have met the most incredible man anyone could ever ask for. He is the sweetest guy and I know he is the one that the lord is preparing for me. He respects me and he is so lovely. I wasn't expecting him to say the things that he did to me this weekend but he was so considerate.

I went up there to get fed by the wonderful people of God and he was there both times. I knew who he was the minute he drove up behind my parents and I. I didn't even have to think twice, and the moment he grinned at me I knew that he could be the one I spend the rest of my life with. He played with my hair and for the first time in a long time I did not mind one bit.

I know the lord will put us together in his timing, but I enjoy listening to his voice and I enjoy talking to him on the phone.

Semester flew by

Wow talk about a stressful semester. It was moment by moment and a bargain for the grades that I received. I ended up with an A in this last class so at this point I have only received two B's for my classes. One was by my own mistake and the other one was a little harder than I anticipated.

That brought my GPA up to a 3.021 which is awesome, because its the highest I have ever had in college. I wish life was this easy all the time. I am waiting to hear back on that day care that I had the working interview at yesterday. I know that its going to work out the way the lord wants it to work out. Pray for me please.

God is so INCREDIBLE!

I have been stressing out over little things and it has been hard to do certain things. I know that God knows all things and I know that he knows what is best for me, but little things have come up and it is hard to pay bills or even make ends meet.

Today I went and filled out another application and the lord I believe could have opened a door that has not been opened in a while. I am going in for a working interview for three hours tomorrow and I really feel this could be the door that god is currently opening for me.

I have been told that maybe I am not supposed to teach, but isn't anything teaching. I mean this is something that I have been questioning myself for a long time, and I feel like I am confused. I mean all these places want you to have experience but its hard to get experience if no where is willing to hire you. I guess in a way I am thankful for all the subbing that I have done at the Early Childhood Center because I have the qualifications.

So it begins....

Many times I wonder about all the things that my eyes behold in this world. I wonder about all the glory that is is out there. It seems so many times everyone else is finding what they want except me. Why is is that everyone finds that one person but me.

I walked into a room and there he was. He looked straight into my eyes and it felt like he saw right to my heart. Now it seems like we are miles away in more ways than one. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him. He was there when I needed someone and he has seem to have just left me on my own.

I cannot stop the way I feel and he has asked me to move on, but I cannot stop how I feel. It is what it is and I know in my heart that I love him more than words can ever express. He has hurt me yes, but in a way the hurt just feels like the pain that was meant to be.

Together forever he once told me, so why must I move on?

*SO IT BEGINS*

The wait begins for you and me. I will always pray for you until I find someone new. I will always tell you how much I love you. You are all that I need and I pray that someday you see how much I need you. All the things I have accomplished in my life are nothing without you by my side. Remember that I love you!